Lyme Update #19 *My Last Nerve*

Am I healing from Chronic Lyme Diseases? Who knows? Lyme doesn’t have a cure, only times of remission. There’s no way to plan for lingering health problems you will get, will or won’t recover from. Symptoms may go away over time, stay same or get worse. There’s no definitive test to gauge how your major organs are affected unless the damage is severe.

The symptoms I struggle with daily are pain, pain pain, lack of balance, some memory has returned looking like a Tommy Gun practice. There are days when I can remember for a few minutes instead of seconds. If you’ve read my post the past two years, you’ve seen the cognitive issues. I can’t recall the proper name of items, have no concept of time and don’t fully recognize inflection. After two years in bed, I started to relearn walking in mid March. Falling is a physical daily threat.

As my body gets physically stronger there are years of doctor and dentist appointments to catch up on. Before Lyme I started to develop Agoraphobia which has manifested to extreme levels anxiety leaving the house. Every doctors appointment is a challenge.

The Lyme doctor prescribed a drug in the same class as one I take for my mental illness. I became Psychotic, waiting a week to touch down in reality. While Psychotic I wanted to hurt people, I was ANGRY. The person I became was not me, yelling, screaming, almost going to jail, wanted to leave my husband, I was a maniac. Sleeping was not possible, I walked in a big circle inside the house 24/7. I had no filter, the words coming out of my mouth were hurtful causing scars.

I normally don’t take a drug until reading the prescribing information on FDA.gov. Feeling rough and not checking the FDA site for two weeks, I started taking the drug. An up to date med list was on file with the Lyme Clinic. As a patient we expect a base level of responsibility. One is to look at med chart to confirm no interactions happen. The step was skipped and a drug for Narcolepsy was called in. I made an emergency call to her making her aware of the grave error. The response, it works differently in the brain.

NOT. A simple search revealed the drug was indeed in the same category as D-Amphetamine. D-Aphetamine is an older drug in the category, new meds come along but taking at the same time can be a disaster. They took no accountability for the error. The message back days later was to stop taking. Fortunately my Psychiatrist jumped in to help, creating havoc with my stable meds. Months later he is still increasing dosages to get me stable.

As I mentioned I have to concept of time or how long the post are. This one is long, I’ll wrap it up. Bottom line that error was on my last nerve. I’m no longer a patient and flying solo as I put together a local team to manage my brokenness.

I appreciate you for overlooking mistakes, misused words and post that make no sense. I haven’t reached remission but continue to put one foot in front of another. Thanks for being my anchor. 🙂

M

19 Comments on “Lyme Update #19 *My Last Nerve*

    • Lis
      Think of you often and pray you’re continues progress EMDR is helping you process repressed memories. I believe you’re on the right track. Please remember medication is needed for mental illness, stay on your meds. It’s hard work, sometimes years and years however when you build strength you can better control your diseases.
      I didn’t hear anymore about your youngest son, I pray he is making progress with his memories of that night and he is working thru the questions they may have come up. M

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      • Thanks M,
        I don’t think you’ve read any recent blogs..
        But I’m no longer with EMDR and no meds..
        I’ve started a Journey with homeopathic remedies
        And it’s wow changing…
        Jeanique my therapist continues to see me well supporting my journey

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      • I don’t know what WP has changed but I’m not receiving all the email post to email I’ve requested. I wore out talking to them right now but plan to find an answer. Homeopathic medicine is helpful to many, I haven’t heard of someone with a severe mental illness flying solo without medications. Stay very cognizant of the lines drawn between helping the surface and helping manage a mental illness. They are very different. Keep you medical team involved. Best wishes.
        M

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      • Like wish I don’t get your stuff either since you removed me from the site..but that’s okay I check on you from time to time…
        Both my psychiatrist and therapist are along side me Working with me and Homeopath…

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      • I must have misunderstood. WP has made so many changes and created havoc for many. No longer writing on the site wouldn’t change anything. I’ve received your post by email until recently. I’ve relapsed with my illness and will see what I can find when not so sick. Thanks for letting me know.
        M

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    • Thank you for replying. There is a lot of content on Lyme and Chronic Illness on the site. The archives hold what I wrote after being diagnosed.diagnosed Have a great day. I’m here if you have any question about the over looked and such devoted diseases.

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      • Hi Manisha for some reason WP just sent your comment. I was avoiding in any way. How can I help? I’m very open to questions or sharing what I’ve been thru. I hope you will reply with how I can help.
        Look forward to talking to you. If privacy is what you need, email me msandorm@verizon.net. I understand sometimes it’s best to not leave comments in public. Do not hesitate to email if you want privacy. I understand and give my email when needed.
        Take good care
        Melinda

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      • Manisha
        I’m still sick with Lyme, the effect on my brain are pretty bad. I made a mistake. I’m not avoiding you in any way. I did not catch it before sent.
        Melinda

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    • Thank you! My mental illness & lack of memory has made it had to figure out how to use the pretty floral no awards badge. If you still have could you email and maybe I can remember how to put in widget. You made several nice ones, I love the floral with I think with light green background.
      Today I created enough havoc to write another Lyme/Chronic illness post. Those are the moments you learn your husband still loves you.
      I thought about this many times, your profile and writing give no clue who you are personally. You’re as enthused as a college girl with leadership skills of someone older, did you decide to blog that way or just happened since you don’t write about yourself. My curiosity is how old you are. By your knowledge of music makes me wonder if we’re closer to the same age. I don’t know why I haven’t asked all theses years.
      Did I tell you over a 100 people joined the party.
      Take care, resting after crisis today.
      🙂 M

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